We are discussing each tension during our monthly Zoom calls and the mini series captures the responding reflections and thoughts as a group.
I started with a few (sub) tensions in my mind:
- How do I stay true to what motivates me, but allow myself the time to bring others with me?
- Do I try a big bang approach to change or a gentler stepped approach?
I concluded that I needed a way that allowed me to be open about what I was passionate about, but took a step by step approach – I recognised that there was no way a big bang would work when I hadn’t even started with the organisation.
So I started as described in the Corporate Rebels blog. I took the approach that I would enter into conversations in a way that was true to my own style, values and beliefs, but that I would not aim to engender any change straight away.
However, by creating the conversations, I created the space for issues to be raised. By creating the space and the issues to be raised I then I felt we couldn’t ignore the issues and needed to at least think about responding. A wiser person has suggested I lost control of the narrative of the change and I would agree I had in that moment. By responding to the issues, or at least even talking about them, there was this sense of significant change even if the actual changes were very minor.
I think given patience this would have been a hurdle easily overcome, but in the context of the tensions above, the necessary trust to provide this patience was not there.